Summer holidays trying to get work done for made up deadlines has got to go – in the bin! Life is so fleeting and I’m enjoying the sky, the birds, long cuddles in bed every morning with my growing too fast child. I’m feeling deeply fatigued by a lot of things that used to work for me.. Internet outrage, working too hard but not at all smartly, being competitive for some unknown outcome. All the fluff so people will think of me fondly .. Or at least think of me.
I realised with pushing through December/ January madness that I haven’t set up too much for the year to come. I set up one BIG thing – midyear. But overall it is clear and I’m not even too sure about what kind of work I want to create. I think I need to just create without too many goals in place at the moment, to see if I can make something new. Of course, my irrational thinking goes IT’S ALL OVER FOR ME, I’LL NEVER MAKE WORK AGAIN and then I have to go hey look at something amazing. Like, poppy seeds..

Flowers blooming that are the size of dinner plates

Repotting plants and envying the simplicity of my kitty’s life

I have managed to scratch away 1/6 of a landscape. That’s pretty good.

Ok well now I am off for an adventure to a tiny dot in the Pacific Ocean.

Holidays keep on going, the heat has been up and down. There has been much swimming, too many late nights and very disrupted sleep. There’s been movies, books, mangos, playdates, puppy patting, babysitting, kitty patting, parasol and sandals, sunburn, blooming tomato plants and cuddles! Tomorrow is my work day, I do look forward to it but will see what we see. January is always like this, always must approach it with patience!

The following drawing is by kidlet. She did it in my sketch book, which is next to the above drawing.. It’s of Sponge Bob Square Pants and friends… I am not a fan of Bob, Kidlet knows this and testament to her sick sense of humour she’s GONE AND DRAWN IT IN MY SKETCH BOOK NEXT TO MY SAD SELF PORTRAIT! Which is hilarious.

Ok, so, heat and dinner time and a bedtime that won’t be successful this eve so must remember to breathe breathe breathe.

Hello blog,

Well, it happened. My dearly loved laptop computer has died. I think I got it for my 30th birthday? Or maybe thirty first? Who can tell in my old age 😉 But the other day, whilst researching the care of our ( large and dominating ) indoor plants, I knocked a full mug of coffee all over it and poof! It’s screen went dark for the last time. I cried – not sure what I was upset about more – the coffee or the computer – but there you go. I love both of these things in equal measure. Just the computer is like, wayyyyy more expensive to fix/ replace.
Husband, being the amazing and thoughtful and practical being that he is – had already created a thingo to back the shit up out of everything. Because I have a history of killing computers with liquids, because I have a knack for taking thousands of photographs and refusing to give any of them up thus taking up HEAPS of space, because it is the right thing to do.
It’s stalled work a little, I must admit. School holidays is a tricky enough time to try and get work done in and this on top of it – well frankly, it forced me to stop.
That’s ok. Things haven’t really been going my way of late. So many technical difficulties, so many people not replying, so many of the things. I feel up and down but overall – I feel pretty positive about the year ahead.

I hope to challenge my drawing more this year. Let’s see where I can take it. I hope to see a body of work through, but if it still needs to be made, than it still needs to be made. We will see. Well, I will see and then I’ll let you know.
So Husband built me a new computer, lending parts from his and mostly made up of my late father in laws. It’s a desktop, so this here prone-to-bouts-of-depression-person ( um, me ) can no longer sit in her bed and watch movies in her pyjamas all day – no sir – I got to get OUT of bed to do that! 😉

Anyway, I felt I should write. It’s my birthday very soon – thirty four. I’m liking my thirties so much more than my twenties ( which is hard to compare because they seem like different lifetimes ). I cannot believe that I have been with Husband for ten years now. We’ve done so much within that decade. I hope to do many things more.

I have to go because the child has been very VERY quite …

Startled!

I woke up the other morning to Kidlet drawing a still life. I had to share, it’s amazing.

Deep reflection of the last twelve months prior to this very date, peppered with metaphors both unique to my quirks and cliché to a person of my age/ experience/ socioeconomic status. Positive affirmations about the next 12 months to come – possibly something humorous, maybe something lovely and always something completely unrealistic. A nice and tidy round up of all the reflections and losses and gains of the year, signed off with some best wishes to whoever reads this thing. And always a reminder – especially to those of you in the Southern hemisphere – stay fucking hydrated.
Also – there’s a drawing I did of my face.