I’m feeling super rubbish today. I think it’s because late last night, I checked my facebook and saw this article by ( the wonderful ) Richard Watts: Shock funding cancellations due to AusCo Budget cuts.
How grim is this outcome? You know, I don’t even know what it all means. I do know that the application that I have been working on, and got someone else to help me with it, that I was going to submit next week, has nowhere to go.
So I guess I am a little shell shocked. And it’s not that it is because I can’t just submit my grant, it’s bigger than that… It’s I literally have no idea what this all means for my future self and for anyone – for everyone.
There is a mass action being taken today in all of Australia’s capitals, of which I am near none. So I thought that today would best be spent painting with my daughter. ( Ideally, almost every day would be best spent doing something like, or much like, this. )
So I don’t know what will happen. In my corner of the world, I will still do what I do – I just don’t know where it can or will go.
I’m a little stuck with my drawing project, but that’s ok I think. Because all big projects lull. So I have been painting quite a lot, trying to find my painting voice. I’m really quite happy with it so far, it’s a beautiful process.
I believe in myself and I believe in my work.
I know others do too, how lucky am I! I just don’t know what anything means.