I read ‘ What Mothers Do Especially When It Looks Like Nothing’ by Naomi Stadlen – it was within these pages that I found the words about many of my experiences and thoughts about motherhood – but also about depression.
Loosing a sense of future is something that I think all people who have suffered with depression would understand.
Driving myself a little bit crazy in cafés.
The Prinzessinnengarten, where we spent the summer of 2011.
I have done a crazy amount of drawings for my project – Berlin Domestic – a project that keeps changing shape. I felt like deleting it all last week but I can be pretty extreme in that way. I just have to learn to just take a break from the world wide web every so often.
‘That awkward moment before the eyebrows go on’- I believe is what I tweeted about this image of the painting.
I really enjoyed how intense her expression is.
I didn’t want to do a grey background like I have on many of my other paintings. So I thought I’d try out green as it is meant to compliment brown. I don’t know what I was thinking! This green made me think of hospitals, veterinary clinics and disinfectant – totally not what I was trying to inspire in the viewer.
Fixing it up! The good think about oil paintings is they are more forgiving when you make a blooper like I did. Just takes a lot of time – waiting for the green to dry before I could paint over it.
There she is – I think she’s pretty fantastic.
Thanks to Camille for posing for me!
Dear all, I’m back online!
My last post here was in June, there’s a lot to catch up on. But I will update this over the next few weeks. Even though this has been offline I’ve still been documenting the process of my recent works which I look forward to sharing with you.
But for now, these are my views: